second chances....

So, it seems I have a second chance with my future. The last four years were a loss. . .or at least a loss in terms of my dreams. But I learned a lot—a lot of what not to do! At least now I am more aware of what I want in my life. And, never again will I let anyone take my dreams from me. I am back to the real Nicki and I like myself this way.

I'm looking forward to my new life--making it the best. I want to finish my education. I want to travel—maybe Peru and Vienna again. I want to buy a Mini-Cooper and a historic condo in Missoula and furnish it with my stuff. I want to enjoy my friends and laugh and dance and love with passion.

I want to draw and paint and play the piano. I want to dress up in pretty clothes. I want to skydive, and fly-fish with my dad. I want to fall down laughing—at least once a day. I want to fall in love and have babies—lots of babies. I want to teach them things and love them unconditionally forever.

So, am I asking too much? Don't tell me it's not possible 'cuz I'm gonna make it possible! I'm taking my second chance and making it the best. I will not settle for anything less than the very best of it all. Yes, my new life will be different.